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"Even now? After all the change?"

"When Wukong and I broke up, I went right back to being a shitlord. So yeah, even now."

"And this worries you that if something similar happens, you'll revert back to being a shitlord?"

"No. It worries me that if anything happens I'll turn to that sort of shit to cope. And I couldn't stand to do that to my kids. Wukong. MK. Red. Wash. You."

"Love, I say this with all my heart and understanding. I think that fear is irrational and full of shit," Lucifer cups both those monkey cheeks.

"If anything happens, something big and traumatic and awful, I do not see you reverting. Because I think you've tasted healthy and drank it so deeply, you can acknowledge now that being that way? Did it actually help? At all? Did it make you feel any bit better? At all?"

Macaque isn't shocked to hear Lucifer's perspective, but he isn't sure that he believes it.

"You think so?" He considers it for a moment. "I do like all the sharing and all that. More than I would have ever thought. And no, being like that didn't help anything."

"No, it didn't. You caused pain because you had no one to process it with. No one to help you heal, to hold you, to tell you that they love you. Now? You have so many. So no. I know you wouldn't simply revert outside of some wacky weird magical thing here or such nonsense. Curse games and dreams and shit that don't count because it wasn't in your control."

Lucifer stares into those eyes.

"You are a good father. A good mate. And a good man. And I want to hear you say it."

Lucifer makes a few good points. "And what if I was taken away from all of you? What then?" Because it can definitely happen.

He thinks, then shakes his head. "Red tries to get me to say things like that all the time. I'll tell you the same thing that I tell him: I'm not ready to say it."

"If that happens, I hope it doesn't but if it does, you know all of us would hope you remember we love you still. And that we believe in you. To be the good man we all see. Even if you don't see it. Don't feel it. And aren't ready to say it yourself," Lucifer says softly. He won't press the issue because that would be cruel. He isn't ready.

"But I will ask you to imagine us saying it to you then in moments like this? Especially if we aren't around. Because we all believe in you. I know I do. So much so, I would bet my existence I'm right. I would bet on the Speaker herself to smite me down if I am wrong."

Macaque nods. He can imagine them saying it. (They do it often enough.)

Rather than reply in words, he scoots forward and gives Lucifer a soft kiss. "I love you, too."

Lucifer kisses him back and smiles.

"With every part of me, love."

Macaque is smiling when he pulls away so say:

"By the way, we should probably talk about the marriage thing you brought up inside Choco's heart."

Lucifer is smiling but then he blushes and looks a little called out.

"I suppose we should. Yes. I did plan to talk to you about it at some point but it just spilled out and I didn't want to lie sooooo..."

Cute quiet. A duck quacks somewhere in the background.

"Would you be of the mind to possible marry me? Some day?"

"I figured. And thank you for not lying." He appreciates not fucking up his daughter's heart.

His smile turns softer. "You mentioned that you haven't been feeling as bad lately, something like that. And it made me so happy to hear. I want to hear more about that before I answer your question."

"You're welcome. I didn't want to lie about feelings to her while in her heart. Seemed completely wrong."

Lucifer's face softens and he smiles. "I haven't been. I've felt lighter. Happier. And part of that is definitely you. I..." Lucifer pauses for a moment, considering his words.

"Lilith sometimes would ignore me. When she was focused on her Rise Campaign. She would block out that which she found unnecessary. Me included. You do not make me feel like that. Like you ever would. You are always there. A call away. A whisper. You listen for me, to me, and I feel secure. I haven't woken up in a while and wished to stay in bed. I can't do things there. Help people. See you."

Lucifer slides in close, pressing nose to nose with his mate. "I have found you here in this world. And others who have lifted me up. Found family and friends and the hotel. I love that fucking hotel now. I love this house. I love you."

"I love you so much. If we could, I'd want that level of tie with you. To know you are my spouse. My husband. For Charlie to be your step-daughter, for Choco and Donnie to be my step-children. For us all to be that level of family. It gives me hope. You give me hope."

Macaque, for once, doesn't listen to the little voice inside him that wants to argue Lucifer's points. He doesn't want to fight it. He listens, and his soft smile remains unwavering, and he loves Lucifer a little more each moment.

"I never really thought much about marriage before Red started in on his courting gift crusade. It always seemed so formal. When I call someone my mate, I plan to be with them forever regardless of formalities."

"You're wonderful. You're good for me. You're a fantastic father. And I'm beyond glad to hear that I've contributed to you feeling better."

He leans close enough that their noses touch. "I'd be honored to get to marry you."

The soft touch of noses, the words, they hit Lucifer harder than he thought it would. He feels his heart clench. Well whatever it is that angel's have in their chests. His wings unfurl and he glows with a soft warm holy light. He's so damned happy tears well up in his eyes. He wipes one eye but then his arms and wings wrap around Macaque and just bathe his love in his warm holy light.

"I..." He doesn't have words. He just kisses his mate. Full of love and deeply.

It's kind of odd, in the best way, that Macaque was feeling so shitty a moment ago and now he's on top of the world. That's the impact that Lucifer, his precious mate, has on him.

Macaque throws himself into kissing Lucifer, one hand reaching out to pet the down of those soft wings that he loves so much. The glow reminds him of his ears, sides of themselves that they only show to those they trust.

The wonders love can do. Lucifer keeps kissing Macaque with all he has until he pulls back. He gently moves his hands to wrap around Macaque and rolls them over so he's on top. Wings hiding them from the world, soft feathers and furs and blankets and pillows. All love and warmth and everything soft. His voice is a whisper, only for Macaque's beautiful ears, and only in this moment.

"I also thought of something you said in Korone's heart. About a name. I thought what if you go by Liùěr Míhóu? As your name? I know it's basically just the Chinese but it has a name ring to it. One you can claim and give only to those you trust."

Macaque is easily rolled as the curtain of Lucifer's wings hides them away from the world, a reprieve that is most welcome. He feels like he can breathe just a bit easier.

And then the talk of a name. A name just for the ones he loves. A name of his own, claimed from what he was called as a youngling.

He smiles up at Lucifer. "I like how it sounds when you say it."

Lucifer loves how they just match in tempo and beat. The way they move so easily. Then that smile. And the way he says that. Well, Lucifer raises an eyebrow with a sharp grin.

"Think of all the different ways I could say it too~" Lucifer leans in to whisper in Macaque's ears.

"Liùěr Míhóu~" he says softly, lovingly, like fresh in the morning.

"Or. Liùěr Míhóu~" He says it with a groan and a very obvious and suggestive roll of his hips.

"My beautiful Liùěr. Handsome Liùěr. My husband Liùěr."

Well, then.

Macaque leans closer with the first use of the name. Then he grasps Lucifer's hips with the second one. The next ones make him gasp.

"Who you can do anything you want with," he counters. "Who is utterly yours. Liùěr Míhóu who will be with you always."

Lucifer grins and his hands slide down. Other hands appear too. They start to make short work of Macaque's clothes.

"I'm going to fuck you, Liùěr Míhóu~ And moan your name every chance I get. Because right now? What I want to do is fuck away all the shadows of those bad thoughts until the only thing on your mind is me~" Lucifer summons forth the chain and collar of golden light. He licks along the links, licking Liùěr's very soul.

"You're utterly mine, Liùěr, my love. And I'm going to remind every inch of you of that fact tonight."

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Macaque makes no objection to his clothes being removed, so long as nothing is damaged. He grins up at Lucifer, eyes lidded.

"Well, since you put it that way--" He gasps when Lucifer summons that chain, thinking about what Max did to his soul at "Organized Yoga".

"Every inch of me will absolutely love that." His tone is goading. Go on, mister devil, do your worst.

The clothes are all removed with loving care. Soft petting too. Of course he isn't going to tear them off. Not this time. This is more of a sensual start until he really lets go. Lucifer's helpers then pull off his clothes, leaving them both stark naked.

"I'm sure it will," he says as he slides down. His hand with the chain wrapping said warm chain and his hand around Macaque's cock, slowly stroking it.

"Of course, some inches of you should beg for me. I do so love it when you're needy, Liùěr."

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