Heart Game: dreamwalker variety

[castaside]

WHO: Macaque and dreamwalker participants
WHAT: Soul explorations
WHEN: any point during Feb 20-24
WHERE: dream world that looks remarkably like Macaque's soul
WARNINGS: will be marked

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Re: Level S - West Door

[noodleboi]

The breeze is an answer that Candid can't decipher. He doesn't have time to really focus on that as the next part comes in. No memory but 'Don't Forget' just repeats over and over, ink into darkness. Then desperation, something that he can't let himself forget. Whatever it is, he has to find out on his own. It calms down and he can hear those words and shivers a little.

"Yeah. Yeah it really is. In all the ways," Candid says back. Love really is a bitch. His fingers go for the candle next.

Re: Level S - West Door

[castaside]

You are Macaque, and you are irritated.

MK just accused you of something -- what, you can't even say -- and took off despite that he was turning to stone at the time. How did it even start? He demanded to know whether you were really over Wukong, which-- caught you off guard. Technically yes, but only because Donnie snipped some connections in your brain...

And here you'd just apologized for being distant before. But whatever is going on with MK, it was it difficult not to give into the irritation that you're feeling. The void where feelings should be is probably not helping, but there was a momentum to the conversation and it seemed to be dragging you along like a riptide.

Maybe it was that you were irritated that he hadn't told anyone that he was turning to stone. That you asked him to trust people to care about him. Irony of ironies.

Still, still, you're not going to let him turn to stone. You may be on each other's last nerve -- or, more accurately, bumping up against the void in your feelings, but you still care about him. You're not going to let him turn to stone.

So you grab the antidote through a portal, and open a second one onto MK's nimbus. Thrusting the potion through it in a tight fist.

"Take it," you insist. He does, and then he tells you to leave him alone, more or less.

So you do. And then you scrub at your face, wondering what the hell just happened.

Re: Level S - West Door

[noodleboi]

There are so many emotions swirling inside Candid as he relives that scene from Macaque's perspective. He remembers that same scene from K's perspective. The original was running on fear. Fear of being abandoned, fear that whatever it was between himself and Macaque was only because Mk was like Wukong. Fear that if Macaque was over Wukong and felt nothing for him, then was that why Macaque felt so distant suddenly?

If it was all actually about Wukong, then maybe he just didn't matter now either.

Candid sighs and takes a moment to think and process. He mouths the word Processing to himself but doesn't say it out loud. Just to help calm himself down. To sort. Macaque's feelings were valid. The irritation, the confusion, and that void bumping and the terrible exchange.

MK was scared and Candid has to remind himself at the time, even though it was never true, the fear was his usual trauma response. Fear of not being needed, of being abandoned, and of not being good enough. MK is working on it now and they are both working on the issues that caused this in the first place.

"Thank you Sunset," He murmurs and cracks his neck.

"Okay. Next one," Candid touches the blueprint.

Re: Level S - West Door

[castaside]

The set of blueprints is clearly this in-progress cathedral.

There are plans for more walls, and a section that is detailing a mirror glass window for Cole, but it's surrounded by question marks.

You feel a sense of contentment when you touch the plans. You feel complete. And yet you are afraid that you might lose all that you have gained. You are afraid that you're not ready to be what they all need. And yet you are striving to try and be that. All you want is their happiness, and to be a part of that happiness, and that would be enough.

Re: Level S - West Door

[noodleboi]

Candid lets the feelings wash over him and closes his eyes. He smiles to himself. This place is going to build into something much more complete. He gently feels over the blueprints, comparing them to the area around him.

"It's coming along nicely. And you are such a dad now."

He touches the goggles next.