The disadvantages of not being born a person, the headspace is a fucked up mess. A lot of my seeming normal is just being good at mimicry once I know what it looks like.
I wasn't really talking about the war crimes. I do feel bad lying to her. She doesn't deserve it, she deserves to have someone comforting and reliable, especially when I went and helped her figure something out and I don't want her to think I lied about that.
I've been clear on your headspace being fucked for a while. Going after MK wasn't the move of someone healthy. [ And that can be unfortunately true for Donnie too, the way he handled it. There was logic to his thought process but yikes. ]
She's probably going to question what if anything you were truthful about, and there's not much you can do about that. You can tell her what was true and what was a lie but most people would wonder anyway.
All emotions can be messy. You just don't understand the positive ones so those feel messier.
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Re: When Zelda arrived
That explains why it feels like bullshit, yeah. [ Just like he said, because it very much is bullshit. ]
I dunno, maybe a therapist can describe the difference. Or someone healthier than I am. I just know there is one.
Re: When Zelda arrived
I wasn't really talking about the war crimes. I do feel bad lying to her. She doesn't deserve it, she deserves to have someone comforting and reliable, especially when I went and helped her figure something out and I don't want her to think I lied about that.
Ngggh. Positive emotions are always so messy.
Re: When Zelda arrived
She's probably going to question what if anything you were truthful about, and there's not much you can do about that. You can tell her what was true and what was a lie but most people would wonder anyway.
All emotions can be messy. You just don't understand the positive ones so those feel messier.