"It's not a matter of you being worth it or not, and you're never going to get it as long as you think that. Not fully. It's a matter of what's healthy for me."
"I think both those things are true. It is what's healthy for you and you always having the feeling of what if the other shoe drops and I hurt you or MK or Red or someone else you love, that's not healthy. That's not safe. And when I say worthy, I mean this chance, if I do fall short, then I was never really worthy of it."
"Funny, I thought that I got to decide what's worth it for me and what isn't. You can have your own definition, of course. I'm not about to argue with that."
"I'm trying to say...if I messed up after you decided I was worthy, then I wouldn't have been worthy at all. You do decide, of course you do. I'm just...floundering here, right now." Another drink of cocoa.
"Whether you're worth a second chance has been decided. You are. It's whether you're worthy of a third that would be the point of contention if we ever get there. Which I know that we both hope we do not."
"I was given enough chances that I feel confident about my position on this. And you know what trust it takes for me to offer it. So we're square on the second chance."
"That...thank you. That's what I was trying to get at. And fumbling all over the place," Candid smiles thankfully.
"I feel good being able to get this all out even if it feels hard for me. And I was getting worried there for a moment about things coming out in the worst possible way to give the worst possible interpretation. Self-worth issues are still at thing. Definitely inherited from MK and made my own in my own guilt filled way."
"You don't have to worry if something comes out wrong. I say shit that comes out wrong all the time. I'll always give you a chance to figure it out together."
"Also, guilt is only a bad thing if it leads you to be unhealthy. A little guilt could be what you need to stay on the straight and narrow."
"That all makes me feel a lot better. And I think this guilt is on the healthier side. I don't think or feel like I'm doomed. I'm just wanting to be very aware of myself. Make sure I don't start to slide without noticing it."
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"I was given enough chances that I feel confident about my position on this. And you know what trust it takes for me to offer it. So we're square on the second chance."
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"I feel good being able to get this all out even if it feels hard for me. And I was getting worried there for a moment about things coming out in the worst possible way to give the worst possible interpretation. Self-worth issues are still at thing. Definitely inherited from MK and made my own in my own guilt filled way."
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"Also, guilt is only a bad thing if it leads you to be unhealthy. A little guilt could be what you need to stay on the straight and narrow."
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"Oh that's so good."