Okay. I don't want space right now. I know you need some of it for your own reasons and that's -- I get it. I want you to have the time you need too.
--Are you sure that you didn't mean it? I could understand if in that moment you meant it, we were struggling so much right before the game. And there's a difference between me needing space and me pushing you away. One is okay, one isn't.
Actually I don't need space. Not really. If you wanted to sit together. Listen to music? That would be nice.
No. I didn't mean it. Not...not like that. It is not your fault if you need space and if you need to give me a small nudge when you need space. Or if...if I ever mess up so bad you can't...be around me.
You can push and I will not become that thing. You can ask. You can yell. You can hold me or not yell or whatever you need to do is what I'm trying to say and saying it badly. Whatever you need, close, far, here or there, whenever, however.
What you do will not turn me into a monster. You don't have to be afraid of that. I don't want you to be afraid of that.
And what I want, right now, is for Korone to get out of that jar, go home, so you can give her lots of hugs and affection and I hope she comes out of it as okay as she can and your family gets to be complete again.
I want to be with you too. Music is good, or more of those action movies, whatever. Just being in the same space makes me happy. I don't need to touch you to be happy together with you. Sex happened a lot but that was a side benefit, not the reason I love you.
Mm, okay. You said that in a very deep place inside me, so it'll take time to really sink in, but I believe you.
Action movies. Maybe some musicals too? So we get music and movies. Yeah. Same, honestly. I love you for you. Just being with you. We'll get back to touching. Someday.
You're welcome, my Warrior. Portal over whenever you want or need to.
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Re: Voice - June 8th
--Are you sure that you didn't mean it? I could understand if in that moment you meant it, we were struggling so much right before the game. And there's a difference between me needing space and me pushing you away. One is okay, one isn't.
Same here, I love you too.
Re: Voice - June 8th
No. I didn't mean it. Not...not like that. It is not your fault if you need space and if you need to give me a small nudge when you need space. Or if...if I ever mess up so bad you can't...be around me.
You can push and I will not become that thing. You can ask. You can yell. You can hold me or not yell or whatever you need to do is what I'm trying to say and saying it badly. Whatever you need, close, far, here or there, whenever, however.
What you do will not turn me into a monster. You don't have to be afraid of that. I don't want you to be afraid of that.
And what I want, right now, is for Korone to get out of that jar, go home, so you can give her lots of hugs and affection and I hope she comes out of it as okay as she can and your family gets to be complete again.
Re: Voice - June 8th
Mm, okay. You said that in a very deep place inside me, so it'll take time to really sink in, but I believe you.
--Yeah. I hope for that too. Thanks, kiddo.
Re: Voice - June 8th
You're welcome, my Warrior. Portal over whenever you want or need to.
Re: Voice - June 8th
Soon, I promise.
Re: Voice - June 8th
Soon, okay. I'll let you go.
[He chirps into the phone; love and patience.
Re: Voice - June 8th
[ He chirps back: Love, care, lasting promise. ]