That's not what I was saying. The point was that when you talk to the princess it had better not sound like it sounds now, or it will sound like bullshit and worse, it will be bullshit. That's really all.
I'm not judging you like you think I am. I was you a few years ago.
Kid, no one wants people going apeshit on someone who doesn't deserve it. Her accepting your flaws, even big flaws like going off on people, and loving you as you are only sounds like they can't both be true. But they can be and they are. Love is like that.
Not bullshit. It's me doing what I can to kerp control.
I need the thoughts because my emotions, my moral compass, will not guide me. I have to THINK to be a better person. I need the logic. My intelligence is what keeps me from going full feral and that's how I try to find better.
But it's none of her responsibility. She can't help the stupid cycles made a freak of nature. I was the one who chose to be the bad guy. If she wants to be angry, she gets to be angry. If I'm lucky, she might give me a chance to prove I can be more.
Besides, you think I'm getting further than 'I burned down half your kingdom' before there's fallout? Pretty sure any speech has gotta be under twenty words.
Isn't that unhealthy? I thought the whole loving them despite anything was just me being obsessive.
All right, then. I can't account for your nature, I'm only telling you how it sounds from my end.
Under twenty words is good as long as there's an "I'm sorry" in there at least once.
It can get unhealthy. Easily. Again, ask me how I know all about obsessive and unhealthy love. But that doesn't mean it always is. It's not a black and white issue. Not easy to parse with intellect alone, unfortunately.
Meaning you primarily exist in one type of emotion? Hm.
Sorry can be very empty or incredibly meaningful depending on how much you mean it. There's nothing stronger than that. It's not the words themselves, it's what's behind them.
I couldn't tell you how a normal person parses it. If you're me, you make the biggest fuckups of your life and you learn the difference.
More or less. The emotions Link ignored. His fear, his bitterness, rage, bloodthirst, loneliness, callousness, cynicism, the parts that want to hurt a little too much, and manipulate a little too easily. All the inconvenient emotions for a hero. Shadow as in physical and what is in his heart.
There's small versions of everything, but the difference is a candle to a bonfire. I know what happy is, but feeling it a lot without someone suffering is hard and rare.
Ah. That might be the difficult part. I don't know if I feel as bad as I should for the war crimes. Like I do. But I feel more bad about what opportunities it took from me. Maybe that's why it feels lackluster.
The disadvantages of not being born a person, the headspace is a fucked up mess. A lot of my seeming normal is just being good at mimicry once I know what it looks like.
I wasn't really talking about the war crimes. I do feel bad lying to her. She doesn't deserve it, she deserves to have someone comforting and reliable, especially when I went and helped her figure something out and I don't want her to think I lied about that.
I've been clear on your headspace being fucked for a while. Going after MK wasn't the move of someone healthy. [ And that can be unfortunately true for Donnie too, the way he handled it. There was logic to his thought process but yikes. ]
She's probably going to question what if anything you were truthful about, and there's not much you can do about that. You can tell her what was true and what was a lie but most people would wonder anyway.
All emotions can be messy. You just don't understand the positive ones so those feel messier.
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Re: When Zelda arrived
I'm not judging you like you think I am. I was you a few years ago.
Kid, no one wants people going apeshit on someone who doesn't deserve it. Her accepting your flaws, even big flaws like going off on people, and loving you as you are only sounds like they can't both be true. But they can be and they are. Love is like that.
Re: When Zelda arrived
I need the thoughts because my emotions, my moral compass, will not guide me. I have to THINK to be a better person. I need the logic. My intelligence is what keeps me from going full feral and that's how I try to find better.
But it's none of her responsibility. She can't help the stupid cycles made a freak of nature. I was the one who chose to be the bad guy. If she wants to be angry, she gets to be angry. If I'm lucky, she might give me a chance to prove I can be more.
Besides, you think I'm getting further than 'I burned down half your kingdom' before there's fallout? Pretty sure any speech has gotta be under twenty words.
Isn't that unhealthy? I thought the whole loving them despite anything was just me being obsessive.
Re: When Zelda arrived
Under twenty words is good as long as there's an "I'm sorry" in there at least once.
It can get unhealthy. Easily. Again, ask me how I know all about obsessive and unhealthy love. But that doesn't mean it always is. It's not a black and white issue. Not easy to parse with intellect alone, unfortunately.
Re: When Zelda arrived
Phi and Sunshine were overwhelming when in a good mood in the Forest, I never knew happiness could feel like that. Still haven't solo.
Sorry feels a little lackluster for what I did. There has gotta be something stronger.
Then how do people parse it out?
Re: When Zelda arrived
Sorry can be very empty or incredibly meaningful depending on how much you mean it. There's nothing stronger than that. It's not the words themselves, it's what's behind them.
I couldn't tell you how a normal person parses it. If you're me, you make the biggest fuckups of your life and you learn the difference.
Re: When Zelda arrived
There's small versions of everything, but the difference is a candle to a bonfire. I know what happy is, but feeling it a lot without someone suffering is hard and rare.
Ah. That might be the difficult part. I don't know if I feel as bad as I should for the war crimes. Like I do. But I feel more bad about what opportunities it took from me. Maybe that's why it feels lackluster.
Not sure I could afford that many fucks up.
Re: When Zelda arrived
That explains why it feels like bullshit, yeah. [ Just like he said, because it very much is bullshit. ]
I dunno, maybe a therapist can describe the difference. Or someone healthier than I am. I just know there is one.
Re: When Zelda arrived
I wasn't really talking about the war crimes. I do feel bad lying to her. She doesn't deserve it, she deserves to have someone comforting and reliable, especially when I went and helped her figure something out and I don't want her to think I lied about that.
Ngggh. Positive emotions are always so messy.
Re: When Zelda arrived
She's probably going to question what if anything you were truthful about, and there's not much you can do about that. You can tell her what was true and what was a lie but most people would wonder anyway.
All emotions can be messy. You just don't understand the positive ones so those feel messier.