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[Heart Game] From the ashes we can build
WHO: Macaque, Red Son, Wukong, Korone, Donnie, Cole, Wash
WHAT: Soul fixin'
WHEN: March 9
WHERE: Red Son's house, Blossomcrown
WARNINGS: will be marked
WHAT: Soul fixin'
WHEN: March 9
WHERE: Red Son's house, Blossomcrown
WARNINGS: will be marked

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"But I kinda took what she was saying and uh...put it to food. I get food," MK said with a nod.
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"...it is apt though. I get different things from your love," he said. "Its like saying what do I want more, my favorite dessert, or my favorite appetizer."
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"Why not both? Or all three. You get your favorite appetizer, your favorite noodles, and then your favorite dessert. Then you're all worn out." He winked.
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"We can talk more about that when we're out of here. Because this place? Not the place. Alright. I'll get the sack. Then you get the bottle? Then we'll figure out what to put in the void."
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But all the same, sometimes you want to forget. You wonder if it wouldn't be better for yourself, for everyone you love, if you vanished. So you couldn't hurt them again. They deserve not to ever be hurt again, and that's not a promise you can make.
You hate that feeling. You refuse to entertain it. But it's there, and it sickens you.
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"...I think...you should feel this one. It's not happy but I think you should feel it too. It's important..."
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"Maybe you should feel this one too."
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Realization was clear in MK's eyes. Big deep character defining realization.
"Holy Sage..."
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Oh.
Its.
Well, the feeling isn't REALLY a surprise. He's had moments like that, wondering if he's really worth all the trouble he seems to cause. Not quite to the point of wanting to disappear, he's not so selfless, but he can see the leap.
It hurts.
To think of him seeing himself like that.
But that is saddening, but MK seems to have made a realization. Good. He had hoped so. "Are you all right?"
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"...I'm his North Star. He said that. All these memories about his darkness. He's scared to go back to that. To how he was when...we first met? And way before he met Monkey King. I didn't fully...I didn't get it. I didn't get how important that was. I...Mei is right. Sometimes I am so dumb."
MK gently folded the sack and put it back down on the floor.
"He's counting on me to keep him from...sliding back. And I...I was such a jerk. I really fucked up, Red Son. I'm gonna make it up to him. I will. I just...oh wow I fucked up."
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Red Son reaches out to take the bottle and set it down carefully. Then he's going to take MK into his arms. "You inspire people. You draw them in. You help guide him to be somewhere better than the bitter resentment. Just like you guide me to be better than just the aching loneliness. You were always that kind of person."
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"But why? I thought for like the longest time I was just a noodle delivery boy. I don't...get it. You all keep saying I'm a light in the dark. I just don't...I didn't get how...important that was. Or powerful, I guess. I just...why me?"
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He sighs, reaching up to caress his cheek. "Its just...you. That right mix of earnestness and standing firm and optimism and probably the willingness to kick our asses when we need it. You manage to find just the right words when we need them most. The right act of kindness when we don't expect it. Its just..." He shrugged and chuckled. "The MK Effect."
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"I just...I don't want to let any of you down. Especially knowing that. That scares me a lot."
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"You aren't letting me down. None of you are. I...sure. Things kinda went bad here like this. But it's nothing we can't fix. And...you make me proud. You and Macaque both. Like in the underground mob lab. You were amazing. You are amazing," MK said, not fully realizing he let that slip.
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"Oh. Um...I kinda saw the whole...uh infiltration mission. Thing. With you and Macaque and Wukong. In the Scroll. One time."
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Closes his mouth.
Hand over face. "I'm going to ask WHY later."
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There is a pause.
"You should tell Macaque. We really wanted to kill them. But that's why I invited Wukong, to make sure we didn't."
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You get the sense that this has already happened before, and you fight every day, every minute, to keep it from happening again. You don't want to ever feel that way again, do those things again. Yet the ground feels unstable beneath you. You dance on the end of a chasm, grappling for balance, letting that shame motivate you. Not again.