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Six-Eared Macaque ([personal profile] castaside) wrote2023-10-02 07:00 pm
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schrodingerscockroach: (Very tired)

Re: A couple days after the Questionable Coping

[personal profile] schrodingerscockroach 2024-05-12 03:57 pm (UTC)(link)
"I feel like I should be more concerned about that killing you thing, but that also feels like me throwing rocks at glass houses," he said. Intent, but failed is pretty close to actual murder. Plus all the times the guys talked about Caboose killing Church....

There is a pause. "You may need better taste in men. Red Son hasn't tried to kill people who are important to him to, has he?" He's just saying, Macaque. Three for three is a bad sign.

He nods. "I can get that. I've pulled on bad habits before in extreme circumstances," he said. Macaque's seen it. Its not exactly a sane and healthy person who can shoot their little sister, even if she IS being puppeteered by a supreme bitch. "But that's why..." He gestures around them. "Check ins are important after the circumstances pass."
schrodingerscockroach: (Exhausted)

Re: A couple days after the Questionable Coping

[personal profile] schrodingerscockroach 2024-05-12 04:42 pm (UTC)(link)
"So its just MK whose the exception," he said with a dry chuckle. Noting that Red Son was also like that. Macaque really could use better taste.

He'll accept the fruit. "But MK also has that 'exception to many rules' vibe about him." He's met the type several times. There are just airs about them. Aoko was the same, that's why she has so many shady people around her.

"It is, yes. I like I said, Choco needs a yay or nay on asking for help from you in the future," he said. "If its a nay, she'd want to know, and telling her sooner is better to help her recover from any feelings of guilt. Easier to recover from one mistake, especially when its a mistake that she wouldn't be surprised by. And having a yay sooner would assure her of any anxiety she has right now because she knows dealing with me like that isn't easy, especially when she knows I don't need to beat someone in a fight to find ways to hurt them. Its why people like Nyssa and that bone lady don't make a lot of ground with me. I'm very good with those games too."
schrodingerscockroach: (Calm instruction)

Re: A couple days after the Questionable Coping

[personal profile] schrodingerscockroach 2024-05-12 05:26 pm (UTC)(link)
"Its more I'm asking for an honest answer from you. Take out the want to help me as a counterweight," he said, resting his elbow on a knee, chin in hand as he studies him. "Would you be okay? If I got that bad again, could you recover? And work with me to make sure that you don't fall into your own bad habits?"
schrodingerscockroach: (Check yes for train)

Re: A couple days after the Questionable Coping

[personal profile] schrodingerscockroach 2024-05-12 05:51 pm (UTC)(link)
Wash studies him as he answers. Looking for signs of lying or attempts at downplaying. Its a very serious question, and he has to be careful. He doesn't like making people punching bags. He doesn't like being an asshole. He fights everyday to not be that person anymore.

But he's also far too aware that he can't say he won't trip and relapse. Proven that he did. It wasn't as bad as his darkest days, but he knows that's in him and its going to be a long time before he can ever confidently say he won't do it again.

Having a safety net wouldn't be a bad idea. One that isn't a kid. Someone who can fight back. The Blues and Reds could do that. Tucker was always quick to call him out on his bullshit when he started waning, and the Reds were willing to just walk. And Caboose...

Caboose is Caboose.

And of course, Carolina simply understood.

It isn't a bad idea to have the contingency plan, as loath as he is to admit it. Its just like he's always ready to shoot someone he loves if he has to. One of those fucked up things.

"All right," he said, looking to the water. "But if you notice it is making you worse, then we're changing things. And if I notice it, the same thing. I'm too self aware to pretend I can always avoid the fucked up thing, but I want to minimize the damage."
schrodingerscockroach: (An open moment)

Re: A couple days after the Questionable Coping

[personal profile] schrodingerscockroach 2024-05-12 06:15 pm (UTC)(link)
"I haven't," he said. Then he paused. "Unless you count evil bitch heart manifestations, but Hearts are always a messy situation." He was definitely playing games with Lady Bone Demon because he figured he was better at dealing with the mind games than Wukong.

"I can't say I don't use those practices with strangers or assholes, but I try to be honest with people who I want to have a good relationship with, and definitely friends and family," he said. "I don't want to use you as a matter of course."
schrodingerscockroach: (Will let a man fight gravity)

Re: A couple days after the Questionable Coping

[personal profile] schrodingerscockroach 2024-05-12 06:33 pm (UTC)(link)
"Good," he said, letting his head lightly thud back against the tree, closing his eyes. He takes a deep breath and lets it out slowly.

Repeats a few times.

It is a relief to know he hasn't royally fucked with Macaque's head. He was honest. He didn't want to have a relationship with lies and manipulations being apart of it. He's lived through that far too much to seek it out.

"Though really, if you did have some selfish motives, you could just ask for a date," he said. He's just saying.
schrodingerscockroach: (Accepted the dumbassery)

Re: A couple days after the Questionable Coping

[personal profile] schrodingerscockroach 2024-05-12 06:52 pm (UTC)(link)
"Better to take care of the heavy stuff, otherwise it festers," he said with a shrug. "Also it'd be real fucked up to bring up a date after that without actually addressing the whole using you thing. That's how you get on the slippery slope."

He chuckles and opens his eyes. "Well, now you just know the way to a guy's heart," he said.
schrodingerscockroach: (Exhausted)

Re: A couple days after the Questionable Coping

[personal profile] schrodingerscockroach 2024-05-12 07:06 pm (UTC)(link)
"That's because cats are awesome," he said. "Little bundles of love."

He nods. "I do. I love him, I wouldn't have adopted him if I didn't, but he has a lot of father issues and it can be hard to take when he stops actually seeing me and I can't get his eyes to clear." He has enough difficulties seeing him as himself and when one of those other people is actually a terrible father, it gets to be...

A lot.

"Hopefully it'll be easier to help when there are more people in his life he can depend on without that issue. So breaks will help, keep me from messing up."
schrodingerscockroach: (Desperate worry)

Re: A couple days after the Questionable Coping

[personal profile] schrodingerscockroach 2024-05-12 07:23 pm (UTC)(link)
"They're bad and if you asked me who I wanted to murder more between him and Nyssa, I'm not sure I could tell you," he said. He has a twenty step plan to make that man's life a living hell before a very slow death.

"A couple of days. If we can't get Wylan into some place more stable after this long, we're going to need to get professionals anyway. Donnie, Eve, nor Lott are equipped or in place to help, and then there's the time of year for Choco and if I crack with him alone, it's going to set everything back to the start. He can't even take me being the Soldier and that's the healthiest thing I can default to when I'm not coping well. He either needs to be in a better place, or I'll need actual licensed back up." He doesn't know how Wylan would react to professionals, all things considered.

But he already hates himself enough for the situation.

If he adds something else to the pile, its going to be two fires instead of one.

"...you can teleport us in an instant," he said. And god. God, does a nap sound good.
schrodingerscockroach: (Wet cat)

Re: A couple days after the Questionable Coping

[personal profile] schrodingerscockroach 2024-05-12 07:43 pm (UTC)(link)
He's used to being monitored via his suit when it comes to stuff like health. Sure, sometimes it was an isolated system, but there was plenty that was connected to some kind of centralized system.

"So even if he's trying to be dangerously reckless, we wouldn't be too late." Because that is the biggest concern. Wylan gets self destructive in seemingly an instant. Its why he's so worried.

He looks surprised at that. He understands the value of a safe house. They weren't things to be given out without serious consideration. "Are you sure?"
schrodingerscockroach: (Could be better)

Re: A couple days after the Questionable Coping

[personal profile] schrodingerscockroach 2024-05-12 08:22 pm (UTC)(link)
"Truly a poor decision," he said jokingly. Probably jokingly. Debatable.

"Hm, at this rate, I might think you're just looking for a cuddle partner," he said. He sighed and looked out at the lake. "...it is getting close to the point where Choco is going to get tempted to use a sleep spell on me."
schrodingerscockroach: (.....yeah okay)

Re: A couple days after the Questionable Coping

[personal profile] schrodingerscockroach 2024-05-12 09:14 pm (UTC)(link)
He huffs a bit, amused. Before he finally lets him slump down more. He IS really tired.

"Your gut is really soft," he said and let's himself lean against Macaque. "Even on your back. Kind of thought it'd be matted, trapped under your fur." Instead it was stupidly soft, even if he was near tearing it out over proper petting.
schrodingerscockroach: (Quiet comfort)

Re: A couple days after the Questionable Coping

[personal profile] schrodingerscockroach 2024-05-12 09:36 pm (UTC)(link)
"You need a brushing partner for that? I used to brush out my cat's under fur, and I only ever got scratched once. Learned real fast how to do it right," he said with a chuckle.

He reaches out to take the blanket. Running his hands over it at first, to get used to the feeling. Touch starvation from power armor takes very careful adjustments to new things. "Magic really is wild."

"What is going on with Cole?" He asked as he adjusted. It takes a bit for him to wide down irregardless.