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"Okay. So him not being so flighty. Not needing to go off and do something, just being there with you, feels unpredictable because it doesn't match what was. And because of that, you wonder about the knowing one another. Let me ask you then, what can you name that you know about Wukong for sure? The things that are still there from the past."

Macaque smiles fondly. "He's still confident in himself, especially about his fighting abilities. He cares about the people he's close to, even if he's not close to as many people as he once was. He's still a giant idiot about both of these things." (Affectionate.)

"It's not really the amount of changes that bother me, though. It's the feeling like maybe there's distance between us now and the fact that I can't predict him is emblematic of that. I don't want there to be distance."

That fond smile is so cute. Those are all certainly things that are true about Wukong, even still.

"That distance. Tell me more. How do you feel it divides you? Emotionally? Physically? Or something else?"

"...Am I a jerk if I say physically?"

"--Look, I can get by without constantly getting some or I wouldn't be with Wash, but Wukong's libido being dead really threw me. Still does. He's all sweet and affectionate but it's so -- gentle. And sweet. And not at all like before."

"Not at all. Needs, physical and emotional are important. Alright. So his libido is decreased. Quite significantly, as he's told me before. Let me ask you then. The way it was before. How ravenous was he? And did you enjoy it and how so?"

Lucifer knows this is getting into something very personal so he quickly adds. "I will not tell a soul we talked about this. I do think it is important and well. With how often you and I have sex, I hope we're comfortable enough to talk about this with one another. If not, let me know but this feels important."

How the hell to say this... (He's fine talking about sex in general but this specific topic about this specific person...

"You-- you know how I get!" With being shoved around, being dominated. He's not blushing just at the very tips of his ears, shut up. "All that's from him. That's where I learned to like it. And I won't say I was expecting the same, but you know, hope springs eternal."

"The one time he even gave it up it was just really... sweet? And not at all what I thought or remembered. Look, I like sweet, you know that, it's just..."

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Lucifer loves that blushing. It's adorable but he doesn't say anything. Out loud. But his eyes do. Oh. He knows.

"So he, back then, was a dominant powerful lover. And you became attuned to it. Let me ask something a bit more personal. Just a curiosity. The first time he was so dominant with you. Did you enjoy it from the get go? Or was it something that took time? I only ask because of how you said that. I hope it isn't too invasive."

"He'd never let someone else take anything resembling a lead back then. I had time to get to know him before we started screwing around of course, so I had no delusions about how it would go. I'd have thought I'd hate it, but boy did I ever not hate it."

He's over the blushing now, sorry Lucifer.

So cute.

"Alright. So it was a discovery of something you quite liked too. And that was the norm. For a while. But now it no longer is. When he was soft and the two of you had sex, what did you feel after? During the cuddling and pillow talk?"

"Some combination of utterly in love and slightly disappointed that he didn't use me to put a crack the floor."

You wanted honesty, Lucifer.

Oh he did. And he is glad for it.

"Now let's focus on that. Utterly in love. Glad for the contact. But a slight missing of being used and cracking the floor. I want to focus on that use word. Do you like being objectified or is it you want a good hard super strength fucking?"

"Why, are you hitting on me right now?" he asks with a grin.

"The latter. Objectification I'll do but it's not my favorite. But who wouldn't like to get utterly railed now and then? It's liberating."

"Only slightly but I also want clarification," Lucifer says with a wink.

"Because use and utterly rail are different. Use is easy to say, of course. But defining terms is important. Now. That level of sex. Rough, hard, powerful sex. Being honest, how important is it to have that with each of your partners to you?"

"I'll take it." Flirting good.

"Importance depends on where I am at the time, I guess. Having this many partners there's usually someone willing to screw around if I need to for coping or closeness. And if all else fails I call MK for a booty call."

"I feel ridiculous that sex is this important to me. Maybe it's because back then, we didn't really have much emotional intimacy and the physical was what I hung into. And now our relationship is primarily emotional and not physical. Aside from cuddling and whatnot."

"Noted. Also I'll make sure you and MK have a room reserved on the Lust floor for Sinsmas. Since I'm certain you'll use it unless you want to fool around in front of others again with him. Or me. Or someone else," Lucifer wiggles his eyebrows.

"So physical pleasure in place of emotional intimacy. Now you have the emotional but the physical balance feels...how would you put it? Off or another word?"

"I'd appreciate the room." Even though he has a room there already but maybe it'll be a fun themed situation.

Macaque chuckles at the eyebrow waggle.

"Not off, just different. Like I have a new pair of boots and they're not quite fitted to my feet yet and they need to be broken in."

"Then, hear me out. Perhaps after we unpack things, you and Wukong should go on a romantic getaway together? To be together, emotionally intimate, and see if the physical sparks when it's just you two together. At the location of your choice."

Hm, interesting.

"Not a bad idea. Assuming it's okay with Emeth." That's very important. "We've never done anything like that before. In the past our trips were always to bust something.

"If needed, I can babysit Emeth. Or that mage fellow. The Prince of Magic, she calls him," Lucifer nods. There are options.

"The King and his mate do need time alone. She will understand when explained, I'm sure. And it's something new to start the way forward. New and the two of you, hand in hand."

He gives Lucifer a squeeze.

"If it's okay with Emeth then I'll ask Wukong if he wants to go somewhere. And if physical stuff doesn't happen, or doesn't happen the way I seem to want it to... I suppose I'll just have to change the way I talk to myself about it. Remember that it's not a lack of love."

"--Because that's really the only way we showed affection back then." Rough sex was just about it since they were both emotionally constipated. "That's probably why it's bugging me so much."

"We'll get to that second party in a moment but there are ice creams and potions and such to increase libido in this world. You could both talk about using those for assistance, should Wukong be open to it," Lucifer smiles as he says it. Because this world has so much great sex stuff.

"For the second part. What other ways do you enjoy showing affection. With Wukong specifically and with others you might enjoy with him. And what does he do to show affection now that you find you like?"

"I don't think drugging him is the answer, even if he's got his eyes open about what's happening. It'll just make me feel bad. I want whatever happens between us to be authentic." If he has to have Wukong drugged to get what he wants, that's objectively terrible.

"Cuddling. Grooming. That sort of thing. With other people there's a lot of talking. In depth stuff that I've discovered I like getting into. Wukong isn't really interested in that, so I only try a little." A pause. "Mostly I don't bother. It's not his thing."

"I was thinking of it more like medication. Still, if it won't make you feel good then it isn't exploring," Lucifer nods.

"How does he show his disinterest with the in depth talking?"

"I think using chemical aids would make him feel like he's not enough for me as he is. And he really is. Loving Wukong is part of me, like my hands or my ears. I couldn't stop if I tried, and I certainly did try."

Hm. "He'll say one thing about the topic and then not really have much else to say about it. So I'm just kind of talking to myself because he's said everything that he feels he needs to say. Like I said, it's just not his thing. I just wish I could peek inside his head sometimes to get my curiosity satisfied."

"So much happened between us. And he doesn't ever really want to process it, so I'm stuck feeling like I don't know where I stand. But if I ask him, he'll just say it's in the past and I'm his mate now so what more needs to be said? But..."

"But it's fine. I just have to get used to the idea. It's my problem to solve."

Lucifer will drop the chemical aids topic. The romance is palpable between Wukong and Macaque.

"Communication in a relationship is a two way street. So let's delve into that a little more since it's an equal parts problem. You want to unpack with him. Which is what we're doing now to help that along. What's one thing you've tried to talk to him about that had made you feel this way?"

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